when a blood mate goes astray(the vampires heart goes cold)

when a blood mate goes astray
(the vampires heart goes cold)
part 1
9-18-2008
writen by:Jeff Sanfilippo



Twas a cold December night on the day before miracles known as the twenty fifth Christmas morning when the fallen (S)aint Philip felt his heart go cold as the snowy ice. Hoping this was just a case of paranoia he finished walking hone to the house of his human love serenity only to walk in on a telephone converstaion that ended in a passionate I love you. These three word she told him everyday and he would whisper to her back being told to another infireated him and set his heart ablaze in a passionate rage but he thought I'm know to be a bit jelouse from time to time probally just the scars of my past so he walked in to see his love who only made eye contact for less then a second but just enough for any vampires eyes something was not right so he tried going to give her a kiss but no response as she only turned her head and when she did the chill he felt eariler came back unto him as she said my dear saint my savior i fear i must let you go and as fear and anger took him at once he gasped no my love you dont understand iv giving you my blood i am yours forever. but she smiliplie looked at him you have all etirinty to move on while i have little time thou i may be your blood mate i must move on to another. and he satated to whom and she said another one of your kind one who iv known a bit longer suddendly the fear over took saint philip the same fear he felt when he was turned as a boy recalling what the wicked leera told him about choosing your blood mate.
Now when you feel the time is right you choose your blood mate but becareful in choosing it can be a deadly mistake. why leera a young cirouse saint philip asked?
well you see when you give your blood as a vampire and they give you theirs your cravings for blood stop and you feed off the love you share but lets say i was your blood mate and i wanted to be with someone elese well if i let another vampire take my blood willing as a scarifise to my new love you would lose your soul and all your power to him thats why you should never fall in love with a mortal ever to wisheywashy in what they want. Then he relized for a mortal he pushed away the one who gave him his immortality and his strangth because of her feelings towards mortals then suddenly his heart started going colder the one who has come to take the blood from his love has come or is near so he left the room and presed against the bite marks left on his wrist from years before and called the only one he had to help him the one who created the moster he was now Leera.

paying the price for my fathers sins

paying the price for my fathers sins
9-13-08
Jeff Sanfilippo





their's a hole in my soul
and a darkness in my heart
the only mercy iv ever recived
is my mother giving birth
to the son of Satan and his ways.
but i was always reminded
i have my fathers eyes


raise a son with hate
remind him he's not blood
and drive a father to drink
so he dosent have to see his son
pushed to the edge


on the day of my birth
a star fell from the sky
sometimes i like to think
someone felt sorry for me
and that someone knew they couldn't do a thing
as im driven out of the light


people often ask why i don't believe in god?
and i always tell them i have to believe in myself
before anything elese and if he's responsible for putting me here
i wish he'd take it back only because i was born wicked

the wicked son that drove his mother to want to die
at less then thirteen months at that and drove his father to drink
and but his step mother knew better so she keept him sedated


raise a son with hate
show him all the wicked ways
and show him he'll die alone
drowning in his fathers wicked ways

Leera

(man screams):go away leave me alone!!!!!!!
(leera):but my child you hate being alone


she will drive me and pull me into insanity,
and show me the darkness.
She will let no harm come to tme
but she is jealous and wont let me get close to no one!
When she is angry she will make me watch my loved ones suffer.

oh leera can you think what your doing is right?
for I am human and you are dead i can not love you.


when I was a young boy she was my friend that no could see
but as I grew older she became all to real.
and she wanted more then friendship and when I said no
she possessed my first love and made her bleed

oh Leera to think I once thought you were pure
but now i see you want to much of me
and why can't you see now I will never love you
so that is why I sent you back to hell


Leera it has been three years sense iv last dealt with you
but now some how you've escaped hell and i fear for my loved ones
and I wonder when will you stop because as you can see I never missed you
and I will never love you so let it go and move on before I destroy you.

back in the darkness

i have fell from the light
and my eyes have been blinded
no longer of passion and life
and i know it pains her to see me fall
but she has let me go
but the memory will always remain
my spirt is covered in darkness
my senses are my only true sight
back in the darkness
back in the darkness
back in the darkness
the memory will always remain

like a flood of manic depression
some are happy and some are sad
but no one is ok
all i ask is that no one crys
i chose this path for myself
it is the only way to stop the pain
back in the darkness
back in the darkness
back in the darkness
the memory will always remain

why?

I,ve sold my soul and I've lost my heart.
I look at the world and see the suffering I have caused.
My senses of sight,sound,smell,taste,touch, are all I have left to me now.
My emotions have left me long ago and are dead to the the world,
even when I'm crying I can not feel nor know why.
My evil grin offers temptation to the the young and innocent
and i give that same feeling when you are offerd that first joint.
So many souls I have brought down to my level
by opening the gates to the sprial of dispaire.
In the world of darkness I am immortal,
nothing can bring me down and the power i hold.
Thou not often but occasionally I look in the mirror
and think to myself what have I done and why did i do it


Jeff Sanfilippo
9-5-2008